No sooner than you published suicide note and we recorded a few suicidal deaths. That got me thinking. I also came back to read the account only to find a few responses that actually spoke to me personally.

While your case has to do with a girl, mine is sheer wickedness.  May be I’m at fault but I always thought the school environment was for studying and research. Meaning that one was free to air new findings on some topics or ideas being taught. I should have asked questions or someone should have warned us...no... warned me in particular.

In my course of study, I came across a new phenomenon so, I naturally looked forward to the time we’d treat the topic.  Looking back. If there was ever a day I should not have been in school, it is this day.  Almost everything my lecturer said was poles apart from the recent findings. So I raised my hand to ask questions and point out the blatant omissions. This was my undoing.  After the class, we were given a term paper with clear instructions to do proper research on the topic. Fun for me!

Based on research. My views were very divergent from what lecturer wanted, why? “He feels he is smart” ... he must have thought to himself about me.

From this time onward, I never passed any course taught by this man. I have failed and carried over all of his courses which are mostly three units from first semester year two. I even resorted to cramming, such that I ‘pour’ down verbatim what he gives us, still there’s been no respite. My GPA has been grossly affected negatively. Truth is I don’t even have the boldness to say I look forward to graduating.  “I have thought some thoughts”. Especially when I look back to see the struggles that ensured I gain admission.

I got afraid when I got to know that attempted suicide is a crime, meaning I must go through with my plan else I fall into the long arms of the law. I had to change my thoughts. Swallow the shame, write JAMB again, get into another school and move on.  I’ve come to know that I’m not in competition with anybody...

Thank you for sharing.